A.W. Tozer, being born again, David Wilkerson, experience, eyes of the heart, feeling, glory, God's love, joy, love, Oswald Chambers, peace, spiritual power, T.A. Sparks, the dark night of the soul, the new self, the old self, thought life
At first an apology to all those readers and followers of my blog who saw that I had published a testimony by David Wilkerson yesterday which I deleted shortly afterwards. Sorry for the inconvenience. 😦 Well, it began to dawn on me lately that I did not dare to write about my own and deepening experiences with God and Jesus as much as I used to in the past. Somehow it was easier for me to let other writers speak up for God, which certainly is a good thing as long as they were truly led by the Holy Spirit. In David Wilkerson’s case I need to admit that I only partly could agree with him since he had been on a different, spiritually lower level as for example Oswald Chambers or A. W Tozer of whom I believe they had reached a higher level than him, or T. Austin Sparks who, in my humble opinion, had been on the highest spiritual level because he had really died to self and was able to live continually in the presence of God in Christ’s Spirit. So you might have noticed that my articles more and more turned into teachings that feed the left brain half. However, where did the creative flow go? 😉
Just now I am sitting at the hairdresser, talking with this sweet woman who cares for my hair, Tanja H., about what a new life might mean for her. She had read my headline on here and mentioned that it sounded good to her ears. Asking her what ‘a new life’ meant for her personally, she made a comment to the effect that it was about being confronted with essential decisions in life like taking a new job or to eventually marry etc. She is absolutely right saying that everything that changes our circumstances to a greater extent we usually call ‘a new life’. She also added that it always had a positive connotation for her since facing negative circumstances like getting chronically sick would mean ‘a new life’ too, yet not a life we would have chosen on our own.
In order to bring God into play, we may ask whether it is possible to experience a positive new life without a change of circumstances, and even more, can we be happy despite negative circumstances? To put it simple, yes, we can, but only by God’s grace. God alone is able to direct our soul with its thoughts and feelings away from what we normally discern as ‘negative’ like sicknesses, rejection by others, or even death. This might sound impossible to some, but we might remember that Jesus said,
“What is impossible with man is possible with God.” (Lk 18:27 ESV)
So, here you find me today, trying to come to terms with experiencing a truly new life on a mere spiritual level while the (negative) circumstances have not changed at all. What I mainly perceive after this very, very long and painful period of dying to self, having been captured in the Dark Night of the Soul (John of the Cross), is that God more and more has changed my focus away from the circumstances here on earth to His New Life in the Spirit which is eternal. Our circumstances will change again and again, whether we want it or not. Of course, we can and we should experience great joy if we find ourselves in circumstances which we like. But alas, we cannot prolong the joy when our life changes unexpectedly without us agreeing with these specific (negative) changes. The apostle Paul told the Corinthians what he thought about these dying to self pains afterwards as he was finally able to enjoy a more and more glorious life IN Christ, even during his time on earth. Paul said,
“For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.” (2 Cor 4:17-18 ESV)
Wow! He called this painful period a “light momentary affliction” only. Not because it had not been painful for him too, but, I believe, because the divine glory he could perceive afterwards somehow eclipsed these former sufferings almost completely. God does not change our view on life in the blink of an eye. Actually, it has been and it still is a long process of coming out of the darkness into a more and more brighter spiritual light where God alone reigns, where His love, His peace, and His joy fill the atmosphere of the outside and simultaneously our hearts with blessings, though somehow anticipated beforehand, these blessings were not really known to me regarding the depths of the experience. I can only call it the power of His resurrection which is truly AWESOME! I think Paul knew of what he spoke as he looked back on what he once went through and could promise us the following.
“For if we have been united with him in a death like his, we shall certainly be united with him in a resurrection like his. We know that our old self was crucified with him in order that the body of sin might be brought to nothing, so that we would no longer be enslaved to sin. For one who has died has been set free from sin. Now if we have died with Christ, we believe that we will also live with him. We know that Christ, being raised from the dead, will never die again; death no longer has dominion over him. For the death he died he died to sin, once for all, but the life he lives he lives to God. So you also must consider yourselves dead to sin and alive to God in Christ Jesus.” (Rom 6:5-11 ESV)
Paul was so sure about resurrection life in himself that he could proclaim, “We know that our old self was crucified with him” and “We know that Christ, being raised from the dead, will never die again”. This is a knowledge we cannot achieve on our own unless we have been enabled by God to behold the risen Christ permanently by abiding in Jesus’ love 24/7 as Paul described here,
“But we all, with open face beholding as in a glass the glory of the Lord, are changed into the same image from glory to glory, even as by the Spirit of the Lord.” (2 Cor 3:18 ESV)
It is not so that the things that are ‘unseen’ because they belong to the spiritual realm could not be seen at all. It is only our natural senses that are incapable of perceiving God’s beauty in all things created. When God has enlightened the eyes of our heart, we sense His presence and beauty everywhere. It is His glory we may behold then as we are being transformed into the image of Christ in an ever-increasing measure every day…. from the first glory experienced… to the second… third… tenth….. hundredth………… thousandth…….. I assume you get the picture. 😉 God won’t be done with revealing His eternal glory to us ever! He is a Creator who loves to surprise His children at any given moment, even eternally.
Much love and every divine blessing to all of you,
Susanne ❤ ❤ ❤