Do you know how it feels to fall in and out of peace? I do. Have you ever struggled to find that peaceful condition you were enjoying so effortlessly once again after you have found yourself in the same old struggles of thinking and doing? I have. However, here’s some Good News… 😉
“For he that is entered into his rest, he also hath ceased from his own works, as God did from his. Let us labour therefore to enter into that rest, lest any man fall after the same example of unbelief.” (Heb 4:1 0-11 KJV)
Actually, my most recent experience is this:
There is nothing outside of us that hinders us to enter His rest. The obstacle is located in our own hearts or it is nowhere else to find.
When I urgently need His rest and peace, I know that I ought to seek Him more than anything else. And if I don’t do it, then I must accept my restless condition until I wholeheartedly return to Him. Although it always appeared to me that the Scripture above would somehow contradict itself by saying, “Let us labour therefore to enter into that rest…”, I realized its truth by giving it a more than honest Spirit-driven try. 😉
Well, what happened to me most recently was the following.
It was a bit more than a week ago as I felt that God had something new for me up His sleeve, a completely new condition, a continued peaceful state of mind I have longed for, for years – no, for decades, actually.
One morning I awoke as I did so often in the past with countless disturbing thoughts on my mind (dreams, sorrows, plans, fears, etc.). From my own experience I know that everything that distracts me eventually disappears as soon as I feel His presence stronger and deeper than before. That is the very reason why I keep seeking Him at least two times daily. However, on that very morning, I sensed a new kind of faith in me that made me even ask God for hours to give me that continued peace I spoke about before. I have always believed that such peace does exist, yet I know how often my emotional life was rather redolent of a rollercoaster of feelings than of a balanced and joyful state.
While praying I was really wondering about that unfamiliar strength inside me to not stop begging God for what I wanted. Although I had not received it yet, I dared to say after a few hours, “My God, I won’t stop asking You for continued peace until You give it to me!!!”
If God had been a human being, I am sure that person would have been annoyed about my insolent and impertinent behavior. Nonetheless, at the same time as I was knocking on Heaven’s door, I was reminded of the woman Jesus spoke of.
““In a certain city there was a judge who neither feared God nor respected man. And there was a widow in that city who kept coming to him and saying, ‘Give me justice against my adversary.’ For a while he refused, but afterward he said to himself, ‘Though I neither fear God nor respect man, yet because this widow keeps bothering me, I will give her justice, so that she will not beat me down by her continual coming.’” And the Lord said, “Hear what the unrighteous judge says. And will not God give justice to his elect, who cry to him day and night? Will he delay long over them? I tell you, he will give justice to them speedily. Nevertheless, when the Son of Man comes, will he find faith on earth?”” (Lk 18:2-8 ESV)
Hey!! Such faith is always God given – I know it now! We cannot achieve it on our own. The only thing we can do is ask God to give us what we need and to wait on Him who never withholds anything from His beloved children that is good in His sight.
” Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change.” (Js 1:17 ESV)
“Now may the God of peace who brought again from the dead our Lord Jesus, the great shepherd of the sheep, by the blood of the eternal covenant, equip you with everything good that you may do his will, working in us that which is pleasing in his sight, through Jesus Christ, to whom be glory forever and ever. Amen.” (Heb 13:20-21 ESV)
Finally, God heard my prayer and drew me into a new, peaceful inner condition where I can feed on His nourishing Spirit day and night. Whenever I turn to Him in prayer, He is there. No need for those painful up and down struggles I had before and without such long interruptions between two “not so peaceful” conditions in which I was so easy distractible and emotionally vulnerable.
By the way, I wrote my new experience down in a poem. If you might check it out, see http://susanneschuberth.wordpress.com/2014/10/27/in-your-arms.
“Now may the Lord of peace himself give you peace at all times in every way. The Lord be with you all.” (2 Thes 2:16 ESV)
Much love ❤ ❤ ❤